It seems that even after all this there are still those who misunderstand
what it is to be a mystic, what it was that Krishna spoke of.
When Krishna said that you must renounce attachment not activities,
many have interpreted this 'attachment' to mean their emotions, or other
things that are in fact activities.
Anything you have no choice about is activity.
And you have no choice about the fact that emotions exist.
You cannot prevent yourself from feeling emotions.
Attachment is not the fact that you have them.
Neither is it a particular way to react to them.
You are equally attached to an emotion if you accept it, as if you reject
And neither of these are 'spiritual acts'.
There are some that think that embracing their joy and feeling it deeply
is a spiritual act.
It may be a useful thing to do under certain circumstances, under others
it may be very hindering.
Getting swept away by joy is almost always counterproductive to meditative
Likewise it is not spiritual to reject or repress your joy.
Nor is it spiritual to let yourself get swept away by sorrow.
Again it may be useful, as catharsis, but if done too much or for too
long or in the wrong time or place, it will make you useless for the purposes
of meditation work.
Real detachment is not the acceptance or rejection of emotion.
It is the third way: the ability to transcend emotion without rejecting
If you feel joy, know it is there.
Do not fight it, but do not feed it either; and be willing to drop it
as an issue so that you can go on to do your work.
Too often I have found students become unteachable, often for weeks or
months at a time, because they operate under the delusion that they must
(and worse, that I must) address and somehow 'resolve' their joy or their
They actually believe that getting stuck on these emotions is proof that
the Mystery School is 'working' because they are feeling something (a
common mistake), or 'not working' because they are feeling something they
dislike (an even more common mistake).
This is the way to stuckness.
Many people have misunderstood Krishna in thinking that he suggests
that renouncing activities is unimportant, or undesirable.
In fact, it is neither of these.
It is simply impossible.
You cannot renounce activity.
At all times, in every circumstance there are at least three activities
Physical activity, mental activity, and emotional activity.
There is not a single second where your body is not active, breathing
Your mind is also always thinking or operating, at least at a low level.
And you are always in some form of emotional state, even if it is only
These are the absolutes of being alive.
You cannot renounce the body, mind or heart.
You could no more renounce thinking or emotion than you could 'renounce
It could not happen, unless you were dead.
Thus, anyone who wastes their time with trying to regulate or alter the
physical, mental or emotional selves for the purpose of 'stopping' them
is not engaged in any spiritual activity.
To renounce, you must renounce your 'lust of result', your attachment
to what is happening in these three areas.
Also, in the context of the spiritual, this is not the end, rather it
is the beginning.
No real spiritual work can happen until you have begun to develop detachment.
By becoming detached to your physical, emotional and mental issues you
remove them as blocks.
To be detached from them means that you accept they exist and let go of
your interest in what they yield.
It is by this transcendence that you can focus on spiritual unity (yoga).
When you succeed in doing this, you will be able to develop real trust.
So long as you are attached to these issues, and under the idea that the
only way to 'solve' the problems of these issues is to dwell on them,
you will fail to be able to trust your teacher.
Rather than accepting your work, you will consider all work only in the
context of your perceived issues.
You will be more interested in the work that you think relates to these
issues, and will be uninterested in others.
Work that, done by itself, would help alleviate these issues, you will
instead modify by your undue attention and alterations into work that
will actually enhance your stuckness.
In short, you become unteachable.
Krishna describes the nature of a 'clever renunciate' as one who 'will
not hate unfortunate work' and 'will not become overly attached to fortunate
Krishna is clear when he speaks about how to focus ones' self to spiritual
He says that someone who is focused unwaveringly in Yoga is in the state
of truth (sattva).
Someone who is focused in lusts, desiring a result, is in a state of passion
(rajas), and they will inevitably create new problems for themselves.
I have seen students who seek out constant realizations, constant revelations,
new ideas that they think will explain how everything is supposed to work,
how their practice is supposed to work, how their relationships are supposed
And they are constantly doing this, it is always something new that they
This is because they are simply creating these realizations for themselves
by first creating assumptions about what the problem is and then making
assumptions about the solution.
Both are assumptions, not only is their solution an illusion, so is their
So their very 'realizations' will keep them frustrated, because even though
they will feel great pleasure and bliss about having these realizations,
they will know underneath that their answers are not fulfilling.
So they will have to assume a new problem, and go looking again...
But there is a third state as well, the state of someone who "never
stops fantasizing, fearing, regretting, feeling sorry for themselves,
Krishna calls this the 'foolish will', and says it is in the state of
I had already spoken about this above, when I spoke about transcending
the emotional level.
There are some students who will be deeply mired in this, in particular
at the level of 'feeling sorry for themselves'.
In fact, this is an attempt to make yourself special, to separate yourself
from the rest of humanity.
If you can't be the most fortunate, the richest, the most famous, then
at least you get to be the most unfortunate, and have terrible problems
that you couldn't do anything about.
Tamas is also sometimes called 'heaviness', it is a level of sloth.
And this 'feeling sorry for yourself' is also a way to be lazy, to avoid
having to do any work because, after all, your problems are 'obviously'
impossible to overcome.
Someone operating at this level will be unteachable if they do not change
But there are also people who are otherwise doing well, who suddenly
come to a realization of their own scars, and then fall into a state of
feeling sorry for themselves.
They realize more intensely than they ever did before that they are critically
flawed, 'messed up' as one student put it.
This realization can come as a powerful shock, as it is something that
most people struggle intensely to avoid having to confront.
I have had students admit to me that they were 'messed up'.
Some were actually filled with pride at admitting this, at demonstrating
their own humility in being able to say what a coward they are, or what
a jerk they are, or what a fool they are, or how uncertain they are.
There were others who admitted this to me with great trepidation, sure
that they couldn't possibly become mystics.
In reality it is important to admit that you are 'messed up', but it
is also no great accomplishment.
Everyone, everywhere is 'messed up'.
Remember this, there is no one who is any less or more messed up than
It is true!
You are in no way special for being this way.
Have you ever looked at patients in a mental hospital?
They can scream, shout, swear, spit, act like animals, let out all their
It is because society has decided that they are 'messed up'.
Of course, society has only done this to try to convince itself that everyone
else isn't just as 'messed up'.
But these people in the mental hospital, society has decided that they
can be completely messed up, that they are allowed.
There is no more hiding it for them, not like the rest of the world that
tries very hard to avoid admitting it.
So they can scream, they can shout, then can writhe on the floor.
They can beat the walls.
Whatever they want.
And there is no difference from these people and yourself, only that they
are allowed to do this.
You would all do the same if you had permission.
That is why in a mystical practice a bit of catharsis is necessary at
When you want to become a meditator, first you have to do meditations
that let you release your hidden nature.
You do Kundalini meditation, and let out your issues.
But to linger too much on this is pointless, it is actually counterproductive.
You could keep doing catharsis for fifty years, you could keep shaking
and dancing in Kundalini meditation for fifty years, you will never get
rid of these issues.
You cannot 'stop' being messed up, you cannot be 'fixed'.
All you can do is know it is there, let yourself experience it a little
bit so as to remove some of the immediate tension, and then let yourself
move on to do the spiritual work.
This work will not 'fix' you, it will make the problem irrelevant.
The Greatest Magickal Power
It is for this reason that Krishna has called detachment the 'greatest
of magickal powers'.
If you achieve real detachment, you can move past all those barriers of
They do not need to be resolved.
So in essence, detachment allows you to solve the unsolvable problem.
You can accept that you are a flawed entity, and nevertheless move forward
to do the practice of union.
This is why Krishna had said never to give up an action that comes out
of your nature, even though all actions will have imperfections, just
like smoke obscuring a fire.
In other words, this is natural too.
It is not natural to become obsessed, or disgusted with these actions.
It is not natural to revel or to be trapped and linger in these actions.
But to simply accept them, and then move past them, is highly natural.
Why then do most people get trapped at this level of mental/emotional
Why don't more people understand this key of moving past?
The answer is simple: most do not want to move past.
Most people wish to be attached.
More than anything that is their desire, because the attachment gives
them the sense that something is theirs, something belongs to them; that
they have something to hold on to that will keep them alive.
If you realize that you can simply move past your 'issues', you end up
with the realization that you own nothing, have nothing that is your own.
This realization many equate with death, and it causes great terror.
If you have nothing to hold onto, you will have to confront that you are
just a very small and passing phenomenon, that you will soon be gone from
The world does not revolve around you, nor will you any longer have your
own little world of issues to mask your inherent emptiness.
To transcend your issues you must truly be ready to confront the reality
You must be ready to accept and discover death, and to confront your fears
about both the termination of your existence and your lack of importance
in the 'big picture' of things.
These are very difficult tasks.
They are addressed in part by devoting yourself to the practice of union,
To come to realize that there is no difference between you and the rest
As you develop in meditation, and if you are willing to confront this
truth, you will see that there is no difference between life and death.
The two are one and the same.
IF you can find that which is essential within you, that essential will
exist eternally beyond death, even if you do not.
There is nothing that needs to be held on to.
In the End
This is all I have to say on these matters.
There is nothing more that needs to be added.
So do not add, and do not miss anything.
Simply practice, and simply remember.
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