35 On The Desire to Know
The need to experience is very strong, and if one is in the moment, and aware that each moment is different from the next, then this need is satisfied by the state of awareness.
However, as soon as you forget that each moment, and each experience, is unique, you will develop the disease of unawareness, whose principle symptom is the false state called "boredom".
If one doesn't satisfy one's need to eat, then the body will react by the process of starvation, slowly digesting itself from the inside, only making things worse since the body is only eating itself.
Likewise, if one doesn't satisfy one's need to experience, if one is
unaware, then the consciousness degenerates into trying to satisfy itself
through the mind's system of processing data into facts.
Finally, just as some anorexics begin actively desiring the state of
starvation, some people begin actively desiring this state of being stuck
in the mind instead of the moment.
Regarding the need to control: the desire to be in control of oneself
is only a delusion born of the belief that one is spiralling out of control.
That is why I say that "everyone chooses where they are".